From Pain to Purpose with Kerry Blaser Bouzaglo | Ep. 28
My guest Kerry Blaser Bouzaglo shares with us her incredible journey. From navigating her identity while growing up in a challenging home environment, being a mother and the deeply personal transformation, Kerry and I explore the beautiful wisdom she has been gifted through the inner work she consistently shows up for. This inner work has helped her transform her pain into purpose.
Bio:
Kerry grew up in a single-mother household in Southern California, facing isolation and challenges that shaped her early years. Seeking solace, she poured her energy into work and academics, starting a six-year stint at Hot Dog on a Stick before shifting her focus to Chinese and Religious Studies in college. In 1995, Kerry married an Israeli man she met in Tibet and soon earned her master’s in East Asian Studies from UC Santa Barbara. That same year, she began her journey as a mother to three children. By 2005, after her divorce, she built a career in health insurance compliance.
In 2015, the loss of her mother on Kerry’s 45th birthday marked a turning point. Compelled to confront her psychic gifts and childhood trauma, she navigated a decade of healing, spiritual awakening, and transformation. With support from shamans, psychologists, yogis, and medical experts, she learned to channel emotional pain into personal wisdom.
Kerry’s deepest growth emerged through relationships with influential men who became mirrors for her wounds—chess champions, decorated instructors, and security professionals. Their presence revealed the universe’s reflective nature. Now, Kerry draws on her journey to inspire others to transform their emotional wounds into wisdom, sharing her insights for healing and personal growth.
Social Media:
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Transcript:
Joining me today is a woman I met last month, someone who has been on an incredible journey, and she’s now ready to share her story. Kerry Blaser Bouzaglo grew up in a single-mother household in Southern California, facing isolation and challenges that shaped her early years.
Seeking solace, she poured her energy into work and academics, starting a six-year stint at Hot Dog on a Stick before shifting her focus to Chinese and Religious Studies in college. In 1995, Kerry married an Israeli man she met in Tibet and soon earned her master’s in East Asian Studies from UC Santa Barbara. That same year, she began her journey as a mother to three children.
By 2005, after her divorce, she built a career in health insurance compliance. In 2015, the loss of her mother on Kerry’s 45th birthday marked a turning point. Compelled to confront her psychic gifts and childhood trauma, she navigated a decade of healing, spiritual awakening, and transformation.
With support from shamans, psychologists, yogis, and medical experts, she learned to channel emotional pain into personal wisdom. Kerry’s deepest growth emerged through relationships with influential men who became mirrors for her wounds: chess champions, decorated instructors, and security professionals. Their presence revealed the universe’s reflective nature.
Now, Kerry draws on her journey to inspire others to transform their emotional wounds into wisdom, sharing her insights for healing and personal growth.
Welcome to the show, Kerry. I am so pleased that you are here with me today.
Kerry Blaser Bouzaglo (02:15)
Thank you so much. What an amazing introduction. And we can’t forget about my job at Hot Dog on a Stick. Have you looked up what Hot Dog on a Stick is?
Megan North (02:27)
Yes, because it’s very American.
Kerry Blaser Bouzaglo (02:31)
And, like, lemonade, and it was all girls. My mum’s best friend’s daughter managed it and it was a great job for me. Yeah, it was a great job.
Megan North (02:40)
I could imagine that it would have been really a defining moment for you at that age because you were feeling isolated and with everything that was going on for you. From 14 to 20, having that support and that network, particularly if you said they were all women as well, that would have been quite emotionally supportive for you.
Kerry Blaser Bouzaglo (03:06)
You would imagine it would be.
Megan North (03:09)
But not!
Kerry Blaser Bouzaglo (03:10)
This is the thing. We attract what we are, right? And I had a lot of insecurities and I, you know, in my book, you mentioned the men I met who I call my original hero in my childhood. And so that job, it kind of came about as a direct result of a kind of crash and burn between us. I’m getting a job.
Megan North (03:36)
What?
Kerry Blaser Bouzaglo (03:38)
Yeah. So what happened was I had a very traumatic childhood, and I share where it is now, and I share his name now and everything. It’s in Southern California, Westlake Village, a very affluent town, about 15 minutes from Malibu, 15 minutes from the Bachelor mansion in Malibu, right?
My parents got a divorce when I was six, and I’m pretty sure I was at elementary school with him. His name is Jason, but my mum moved quickly and I didn’t see him again until high school.
And I’m 14 and he’s 16. He’s ASB president of like 2,000 kids, over six feet tall, super good-looking, in advanced placement, varsity letterman, you know. And I don’t remember elementary school, and he gets the most popular kid in senior year to introduce him because I wouldn’t let him talk to me. And I’m like, you know… and I wouldn’t let him talk to me.
I was terrified. I thought he was making fun of me, teasing me. I thought he was making fun of me, like teasing me, and I just ran away. He quickly, because you know, had a picnic lunch with another girl. And, you know, I went and got a job. OK. You see, like it was, I didn’t know how to solve the problem.
We danced briefly at homecoming the next year until I ran away crying. You know, I was hurt. I didn’t know how to be an emotional centre. And he was from a super conservative family. I didn’t know how to be super conservative.
My mum was an alcoholic. My dad was a workaholic. He left me home alone at night and slept at his girlfriend’s house. There’s no, like, “I’m protecting myself.” Like, what?
You know, my brother was there, but he’s a year and a half older than me. Like, what are you going to do? You know? Yeah. Yeah. So, you know, Hot Dog on a Stick really kind of gets going for, you know…
I say I’m Mary Magdalene Soul, and I so appreciate you, Megan. Like, I’ll just be honest with the audience: I didn’t write that at first because it’s hard to come out. But then you shared that this episode will air on December 24th.
I’m like, in Australia, I’m like, what happened on December 24th last year is, these men in my book, they mirrored my wounds back to me. I didn’t go on a date with any of them, and they all led me back to Jason from my childhood. And I didn’t remember Jason because I just repressed, repressed, repressed.
Megan North (06:22)
So you didn’t…
Kerry Blaser Bouzaglo (06:25)
Barely. Like, barely remembered him. I remembered, like, maybe I remembered a little bit on and off.
I remembered him when I started my son in Boy Scouts because he came one time with his brother. We were both Boy Scouts. So I was like, that wasn’t a cool thing to do, but he didn’t care. He came one time and came right where I was and I saw him. OK, that’s OK. My son is an Eagle Scout.
Yeah, because that’s how impactful this man is on my life. So anyway, my intuition guided me to reach out and I go over this in the book, in November of last year, like two days before the election. And I’m like, “Jason…” Got to wait, wait, what? You know, I haven’t in 40 years, like what? Huh? But I knew by that point, like I have to follow my intuition. So I did.
He read the post, my message from Facebook, but he didn’t get back to me. And I saw, I’m like, oh, I found him on Facebook. Oh, he’s head of global security at GoDaddy. Like, I don’t know what GoDaddy is, but I’ll just go message him. I had no idea what GoDaddy was. OK.
So I messaged him and then all this healing starts, you know, and all these things happen. And I’m shown that I’m an agent of God and that agents of God hide things in one lifetime to be found in another. Like, well, I don’t know, I just got to heal. Like, I’m facing my rape wound. I had like a hysterical pregnancy for three weeks, like in and out of enlightenment. Like, it was gnarly.
And then on December 24th, I went to the doctor. I’m not pregnant. OK, it was from my childhood, a wound from my childhood. But I still need to speak to him. I haven’t spoken to him yet. I had to call the police in September when those memories finally came back, nine months later, clear enough for me to go, “I can call the police now and I can report now.”
So it’s like the pregnant, hysterical, you know… you can, yeah. So anyway, but I finally reached out and I apologised on December 24th and said, “I’m sorry, I wouldn’t let you talk to me. You were like climbing Mount Everest of romance and I didn’t know how to handle it.”
I wasn’t prepared to be the emotional centre from my childhood trauma because I was so busy protecting myself, providing for myself. Masculine, masculine, masculine. When he and I both needed my femininity that I had no access to.
Femininity gives, has compassion, communicates, emotionally stabilises. My mum is an alcoholic. I freaking had no clue.
When you told me that this episode will air in Australia, a country I’ve been to and that I love, I was like, my gosh, I have to be Mary Magdalene Soul. So thank you. Like, you know, we had an amazing conversation last month. It totally opened me and I’ve opened a ton since. So I just thank you.
Megan North (09:38)
I’m so grateful. I’m so grateful that you’re here and that you’re sharing all of this and that you’re on this new journey. So we touched on a small part of your journey with your introduction and you’ve just talked a little bit about it then.
But what was the defining moment that has now led you to pursue, and I’m going to say passion and purpose, because when you talk about Mother Mary Magdalene, when you talk about this, your passion is there. And clearly it’s a new purpose that you’re on.
So what was the defining moment? Was there one moment, or was there a few moments?
Kerry Blaser Bouzaglo (10:18)
There was one. My mum passed away on my 45th birthday. And then that was the day that my intuition told me it’s time to accept your psychic gifts and it’s time to heal from your childhood trauma.
So I started to learn how to surf the waves of life. I thought life was only a valley of darkness. I had 35 years of debilitating lower back pain.
My lower back pain started when I was 15 and a half. Jason’s two years older than me and left for his Mormon mission when he was 18 and I was 16. And I bought a car, a green car. Green is the heart chakra, but I didn’t know it. You can see it on my website.
So I bought, from Hot Dog on a Stick money, and my grandma and my mum, even though my dad made problems, right? I bought a Kelly green Karmann Ghia, stick shift. And I owned that thing. I owned it. Like, green is my favourite colour, you know?
So yeah, that was how it really started, was my 45th birthday. Then that was four years later, my youngest daughter. So these are my three kids: Ethan… sorry, Ethan’s over here. And then my older daughter, Yael. My youngest daughter, Orly, is over here. And then that’s my mum. They all have my back.
So my youngest daughter, Orly, developed an eating disorder from all of her dad’s childhood. He’s Israeli. That just speaks for itself, right?
So something else about being Israeli… like tomorrow is the 30th anniversary of Itzhak… because we’re taping on November 3rd. November 4th is the 30th anniversary of Itzhak Rabin’s assassination.
And Ami, my ex-husband, I met him two weeks after Rabin was in Beijing for the historic Sino-Israeli meeting. And he has personal pictures of the Israeli flag next to the Chinese flag around Tiananmen Square. Now he’s former Israeli Defense Force, like Special Forces, right? So he seemed like part of that entourage.
And so now that this is all coming out, like Mary Magdalene, 30th anniversary of Rabin… like, so many other signs and synchronicities. I’m like, now is the time for healing.
I spent, I repressed the pain in my womb. That’s why I had 35 years of like debilitating lower back pain. Hard time cleaning and cooking and caring for my kids, like gnarly pain.
So then my youngest daughter blamed me for her eating disorder. I came home, I took all the medications I had: trazodone and Soma, and Klonopin. Like, it was gnarly, gnarly. And I went upstairs and went right to sleep.
And I couldn’t sleep. I mean, just let go. And my older daughter found me the next morning, saved my life. But then when I healed, I knew it was just Kerry 2.0.
Now it’s the time to climb my ladder of self-belief. And that’s exactly what I did.
I did medicine journeys, and about a year and a half later, I had my first longer conversation with my first hero. He’s Jewish. He was speaking about Israel, the Kibbutz, and we spoke in Hebrew.
And that was my first hero, not knowing about Mary Magdalene Soul. Not knowing that Jason Colvin, JC, right, looks to me from all sides is Jesus Christ. Like, I had no idea. I had no idea. I just was living my life.
China. I want to go to Tibet. Israel. Let’s go. Let’s go to Australia. Cool. Learn to scuba dive. Like, I just lived my life, had the kids, and then this all happened.
